I sort of went on a sabbatical for a few months to clear my head, to know my heart, and to search for truth. I never knew how freeing it is to take a break from the world, its opinions, but mostly its weight on my shoulders. I forgot what it was like to just breathe, to take a long walk in the park, to sit outside and gaze at the beauty that’s around us. God is the artist of our world. We can get so caught up with everyday life, work, stress, relationships, school, ourselves- that we don’t notice the beautiful colors of a sunrise, the magnitude of the sky, the feeling of the crisp breeze on our skin, the warmth of the sun on our face, or the possibility of a dream. Somewhere in between the chaos and busyness of life, I lost myself. I abandoned my purpose. I went from chasing after my dreams, to chasing after nothing. I became complacent and yet too comfortable with the way things were. I wondered how I got to where I am. I mean, I was trying to figure who I was. Where did the old me go? Where did the passion to make a difference in this world disappear to? What happened to the bold, courageous girl- who wasn’t afraid to dream BIG. Who saw beauty in every person. Who appreciated the splendor of our Creator? How did the girl who freed herself from the cage she was in- fly back in her cage? I realized what had happened and I wasn’t okay with it. That is when reality hit me and truth found me. I was free again. We can get lost along the journey. Even sidetracked. We must not forget who we are, what we were destined for, or even the simplicity of life. Going on this sabbatical of finding myself- was the best decision I ever made. I found myself again, and somehow, I have become ALIVE. I want to dream again, laugh again, FLY again, and never be just okay with settling. Search for truth. Embrace freedom. Understand spiritual things. Appreciate nature. Don’t be mad on the path you may be on. It is where you need to be at this very moment.
Yes, I was on a road that was uncertain, but it was the road that led to me.